When you think you know someone........you probably dont.

Sometimes you can get caught up in the everyday stuff, the familiarity of someone that you just only recently met. How can it feel like you have known that person for forever when really it has only been a few weeks? What is it that makes you feel you can trust them with anything? Your body, your mind, your heart?  I guess I learned the hard way that not everything is the way it seems....apparently major technicalities are not so major to some people, and feelings can be disregarded at the drop of that hat if the other person feels it is there right to do what they wish.....I dont know..I have never really been one to feel that way....... Sometimes its almost funny how people can twist situations to make ot seem more appealing to themselves, or maybe they just do not see the result of their actions. I am far from perfect, but I wish i could pinpoint where it went wrong? Our first fight? when he went away? I do not really know...maybe if I could have gotten back to that we would have solved this charade.  But alas it is to late now, and for the better, we had both turned into people we did not want to be......
Last night a chapter in my life ended, something I thought was really good, a person I really thought I could have loved......well it died completely. Some people match and some people dont......we didnt match. The part that sucks is how long it took to figure out. Your heart and mind can easily play tricks on you, making you think you love someone, when really.....you arent even friends. How can two good people not work together?  Is the pre requisite to a good relationship one good person and one bad person?  I am not really sure anymore.......all I know is that I feel like a part of me is missing, the good part, the idea of the good times. I know in time that will fade....it always does. In times like these its hard to recall the bad times....even if that is what you should really be concentrating on, those were the times that ripped it apart. Those were the times we should have let it go but instead held on in hopes of rekindling the butterflies that started this whole thing. He did give me butterflies, he made me feel like I was on top of the world, like nothing could hurt me, where did that go? when did he stop caring?  But the mind can trick you into a lot of things........Regardless........this is for the best.  When one door closes......a new one opens.