Pathways of LIfe

Another night, another bottle of wine......this time my thoughts are far away from my peeping neighbour. Tonight.....my thoughts are all surrounding my life......the path my life has begun to take and things I fear I may have left behind. Sometimes there are people who come and go in your lives......they come to teach you lessons, to show you the way, to offer you something you are lacking.....but what can you say about the people who offer you nothing? what lesson is there to be learned from those who are unable to teach you?
This question is one that haunts me tonight. What do I want and need out of the people in my life? Do i really need anything at all? Why are they here? what lessons should I be learning?
so many questions and no answers anywhere in sight......ah damn all my candles just went out...brb.....ahhh there we go.... I dont really know where my thoughts are tonight, there are all sorts of things just wizzing through my mind and i only briefly catch a glimpse of what they are.......which ultimetly ends in confusion. Why cant i stop thinking.....just for a moment.....if i dont...i am going to get myself into a lot of trouble....this confusion may send me over the edge....

I miss you, I really do....and I shouldnt because you arent far from me at all...now how does that make sense...I miss the way you use to make me feel, they saftely i felt unknowingly, the peacefullness......how could i have not realized it sooner.......maybe i can get that back..
In my life i have never really done things without thinking them through first....but with you...i didnt have to think......i needed that...how do we get back there......how do we make this work.

 
thats all i have.......