Find the One that makes you Smile

Sorry I am a couple days late posting.....now trying to backtrack.......The title of this blog........I found it while I was searching for other blogs to read, anything to keep me busy. To keep my mind off of what happened today. I really seriously thought that I had found the one that made me happy...but is it enough to only be happy 50% of the time? How can something that seems so perfect go so very wrong? This just feels like such a waste...throwing something away that is rotten to the core makes sense but throwing away something that is simply just not ripe yet.....well it is illogical.  What are you suppose to do if you do not like the person that you are when your with them? WHY are you that person? WHY cant you stop being that person....what are you afraid of? and why cant he stop being that person that he hates, that he swears he isnt? It is us or is fate trying to send us some very strong signals? if its fate.........thanks message received LOUD AND CLEAR....as much as I hate to admit. I am not suppose to feel like this........my life is not suppose to be complicated.
I regret not going to that concert tonight....maybe it would have saved us or just prolonged the inevitable i dont really know........i guess i am really at a loss for words.... everytime i try to type something....i simply think .."WHY?"
Why did we fight?
Why couldnt we fix it?
Why do I still feel the need to talk to you?
Why arent you home?
Why cant you just love me?
Why do you hate me?
Why do things seem so right...yet turn out to be so wrong?
 
Questions I do not think I will ever have answers to..........