Back into the world Ive Known

Sometimes the emotions you have are swirling so fast inside of you that it is impossible to feel anything.....the moments all pass by in seconds but it feels like years and your agony drags on and on. Sometimes how you feel is said better with a song. All I can say is Thank you Three Doors Down.
It's down to this
I've got to make this life make sense
Can anyone tell what I've done
I missed the life
I missed the colours of the world
Can anyone tell where I am

'Cause now again I've found myself
So far down, away from the sun
That shines into the darkest place
I'm so far down, away from the sun again
Away from the sun again

I'm over this
I'm tired of living in the dark
Can anyone see me down here
The feeling's gone
There's nothing left to lift me up
Back into the world I've known

"Back into the world I've Known".....my long lost friend, my familiar space, my comfort....we meet again. I should have known better. I should have learned the other two times that the pain would be back, that it was never far away. Maybe one day the part of me that hopes for what can never be will give up. I pray that it is soon because I do not know how much more pain i can take. The one to blame is me....only me...its always only me....

Pieces of me......