My Life in a box

Well i do not know if this title will really fit this blog but I had to call it something. This last week has been the longest of my life or at least it feels like that. It has definetly not been one of my best......long story short ...my world was ripped apart but thank god I finally feel like I am putting it back together piece by piece. The unfortunate part if that I am trying to find answers from others rather than looking to myself for them. I have never done that before and I feel ashamed that I have done it.....Feel niave and weak. That I actually let myself be duped.....unfortunetly right now there is still part of me that holds on to everything she said to me in hopes that she really knew me.....really knew what I was about ........but thats not possible....no one really knows me....no one really gets me.........and thats the sad part......
SHe was right about a lot of things.....so i suppose all i can do is wait.........its killing me....ripping me apart one thread at a time.......but i hope to be able to pick up the pieces later.......i dunno what will happen......i cant only wait.