Times Change

It is 10:47am and I just walked through my door and as I sit here in my room amongst my things I try to remember the girl I once was. Somedays are harder than others, my memories seem to be locked away in the vault of my mind...oh how I wish i could unlock all those precious times without having the wave of pain and torment follow.

Last night my life changed...in a great way....in an amazing way. Time did not seem to exist but the simple things around me became so clear and distinct. The smell of chicken sandwhiches and sweedish berries still linger with me hours later. The image in my mind so vivid and pure. My emotions running wild. Fear, anxiety , anticipation all run through my body at an accelerated pace. This world I have been living in has been one that is unknown to me and too many changes are difficult to deal with but I am not alone this time. When the seasons of this journey change I know you will be there not only to help me through but to sit and watch the beauty unfold as well.
You have taught me to live for today and not tomorrow or what may be. That the experience of now will be lost if you always look for the future.

Somehow you know who I am, you can look in my eyes and see me. It scares me to know that you may be the one to uncover my scars, to unleash my passion and want, to make me lose control........Times Change......